Anne.D Blog

Painting a Personal Image

2011-09-15T12:01:00.000-07:00

"To paint a personal image in our own way may seem too simple or primitive. So we reveal ourselves only partially, barely allowing a hint of form, suggesting just a minimum of definition. We are afraid that by allowing the particular to be painted, it will imprison us. But the reverse is actually true:

To be willing to be specific is

to dive into our

freedom.

The images that you have inside are authentic, and they need commitment and care in order for you to grow. When you paint personal images, their significance is found not just in the content but in what moves them, the energy that has brought the painting together, the life in it. When you let these images take form in their own unique way, you are in touch with something beyond yourself. The universal is not separate from the personal. On the contrary, the universe uses the personal to manifest."

"Life, Paint and Passion"
Michele Cassou

Trust the Process

2011-09-05T09:41:00.000-07:00

This is what I have been learning since I decided to "dedicate myself to painting" after I finished architecture school...

Click on image to enlarge

From Shaun McNiff
"Trust the Process: An Artist's Guide to Letting Go"

Going deep, all alone...

2011-09-03T19:44:00.000-07:00

It has been my experience that there are times in my creative life when it has been useful not to show my creative work to anyone - not just useful, indispensable! Absolutely vital! During that time, it was very necessary not to compromise or be swayed by others' potential requests or pressures - as well as those of my own mental agenda.

It can be difficult for some artists not to share/show their work, at least with a few close friends. But at critical times, it allows us to create a safe, protected space where the inner-child - the inner-artist - can go deep and explore mysterious realms that were never explored before. This is not the time to take risks of externalization. It is a time to be nurturing and truly free to "work" and express for ourselves only.

This very special, and often scary time, is needed in order to disintegrate and dismantle the old ways that are becoming stale; then, in parallel, or at a later stage of this process, we will be able to recharge and renew in a deep and genuine way. A good archetype for this transformation is the "Tower"- the XVI card in the tarot.

When we come out of that phase, like after a long winter, we will be ready for the new Spring. We will be a different artist, a more genuine one again - more vulnerable perhaps, but much richer for it: creating from our deepest truth at last.

The Dark Night of the Creative

2011-09-03T18:04:00.000-07:00

"Steven Spielberg: We hear his name, and we think, "Steven got his first movie camera at age eight." We hear this sort of mythic story, and yet I was once in a hotel room with Steven Spielberg and Brian De Palma. They were sort of babysitting me so that I didn't date while Marty was in France. (He had put them in charge of me, so to speak, and they were my babysitters.) We were sitting in this hotel room, and Steven Spielberg says to Brian De Palma, "I've been trying to make a movie about extraterrestrials, and I can't get anybody interested in it, and I really think I should just give up."

Brian said, "Steven, I've been listening to you for years, and when you talk about extraterrestrials, you sort of light up. I don't think you should give up." Of course, he didn't give up, and he made Close Encounters of the Third Kind and E.T.

The thing is, we don't often hear the story, "Steven Spielberg was tempted to give up. Steven Spielberg had a dark night of the soul. Steven Spielberg had doubt." Instead, we hear stories that tell us that there's such a thing as "real artists," and they are people who we are told are fearless in pursuit of their art. There's really no such thing."

From Julia Cameron
In an interview with Tami Simon on Sounds True:

http://www.soundstrue.com/podcast/on-the-creative-life/?#bottom

On The Creative Life

2011-09-03T17:13:00.000-07:00

I sincerely enjoyed this Aug 2011 interview with Julia Cameron.

Tami Simon speaks with Julia Cameron, an award-winning writer and director. In addition to her many films, television episodes, plays, and articles in publications such as Rolling Stone, Vogue, and the New York Times, Julia is the author of the bestselling book The Artist’s Way. With Sounds True, she has recorded the audio teaching program Reflections on the Artist’s Way and, along with Natalie Goldberg, The Writing Life. In this episode, Tami speaks with Julia about how to break through creative blocks, how to deal with the internal censor that we all have when we write, and why creativity requires that we take risks. (50 minutes)

http://www.soundstrue.com/podcast/on-the-creative-life/?#bottom

Here is a sample of the questions Tami asks Julia:

TS: What about the person who has a block about doing Morning Pages?

TS: I think there's definitely an idea in our culture that if it's that simple, it's simplistic or lacking sophistication, or not really going to take you all the way, or something like that. How would you respond to that?

TS: Have you ever had a time in your life where you were blocked for a long time, like six months, or a year, or two years, or something like that?

TS: I know you've actually named your Censor. At least there's one name: Nigel. I'm curious how that came to be? What was happening in your life that this name was given to your Censor, and also how that works for you, if it's useful to have a name, and why?

TS: I read there [on your new website, JuliaCameronLive.com] that just because it might take us a long time to start a project doesn't mean that that project isn't going to be wildly successful. Sometimes we have an idea, [and if we think] "I haven't done it yet! I haven't done it yet!" that it means that it's never going to happen, never going to work. But that's not really the case, necessarily.

TS: Then the thing I'm curious about is, after having made this [Creativity] the focus of your life now for many, many decades, do you ever have the sense that, "Maybe I would be more fulfilled if I had done this or had done that," or, "I really missed out on this other thing"?

TS: Now, there's one other quote that I read of yours that I'd love for you to comment on. Here it goes: "In order to grow as artists, we must be willing to risk. We cannot continue indefinitely to replicate the successes of our past. Great careers are characterized by great risks." I'm curious to know what, if any, are the risks that you might currently be taking in your life, [that] you identify [as], "Oh, that's a risk I'm taking."

http://www.soundstrue.com/podcast/on-the-creative-life/?#bottom

For more interviews from "Insight At The Edge"check out:
www.SoundsTrue.com

Not a Goal, Not a Label...

2011-08-26T16:47:00.000-07:00

" You are not a painter - you just paint."

Michele Cassou
"Life, Paint and Passion"

The Mystery of Yourself

2011-08-21T10:26:00.000-07:00

"As children we were taught how to do everything: how to read, how to study, how to be polite. We have been bombarded with the 'right way' to do things. So now we are approaching art and we think we should know how to do it. Yet art is the only thing that we should not know how to do!

Art is the place not to know.

To create is to move into the unknown - to move into the mystery of yourself, to have feeling, to awaken buried perceptions, to be alive and free without worrying about the result. But the mind is conditioned to think it wants a nice painting, a nice tree, beautiful scenery. No! Maybe you want monsters. Maybe you want chaos, maybe you want a mess.

Maybe

it will feel really good

to paint

an ugly painting.

Maybe that would open your being much more than a masterpiece."

Michèle Cassou

"Life, Paint, and Passion"

What's REALLY you...

2011-04-27T15:44:00.000-07:00

"What you can rely on you've never relied on in your life. What you can't trust you've been trying to trust all your life. What you've been trusting has never been you. What you've been ignoring has always been you. Try to trust what's really you and see what happens."

Ra Uru Hu, the founder of Human Design

YOU Are No Mistake

2011-04-14T21:13:00.000-07:00

"Statistically, the probability of any one of us being here is so small that you'd think the mere fact of existing would keep us all in a contented dazzlement of surprise."

Lewis Thomas, Physician and Essayist (1913-1993)

This World is YOUR Own Reality

2011-04-13T20:42:00.000-07:00

"We've also been given a belief, in Phase 1 of The Human Game, that a powerful success strategy is to model the behavior of other people, that if you do what they do, the way they do it, you can produce similar results. That belief is particularly seductive if we have great respect for the person being modeled and really want what he or she appears to have. But neither belief is supportive to you in Phase 2.

[...]

"In Phase 2, there is absolutely no relationship

between

what happens for you

and

what happens for someone else."

From: "Busting Loose From the Money Game - Mind Blowing Strategies For Changing the Rules of a Game You Can't Win."
by Robert Scheinfeld

Remember who you are...

2011-04-12T21:12:00.000-07:00

. . .
"As soon as you trust yourself,

you will know how to live."
. . .

Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe (1749-1832)

Being Without Attachment

2011-03-14T15:00:00.001-07:00

From Story Waters - You Are God. Get Over It!

When you release attachment there will be much that will leave your life. These are all things that have run their course and are ready to move on. They are experiences that you were artificially sustaining with your effort. To release attachment is to face reality with clarity and allow it to be what it is, rather than what you were trying to force it to be. Initially this may be painful, but through the allowance of that pain will come freedom from addiction. In revealing a hole that you were artificially filling, you are offered the opportunity to see, and thereby heal, the wound which the hole represents.

Your attachments act as temporary bandages which hold you from seeing your wounds. To let them go is to allow your wounds to breathe, heal, and be reintegrated into your being. Though letting go of your attachments may be painful, it is not the pain of loss, it is the pain that you shut down when the original wound was created. The only loss that ever took place was the loss of the aspect of your being that was shut inside the wound. To let go of your attachments is to regain something, not lose it.

Complete Allowance

2011-03-07T20:59:00.000-08:00

By Story Waters
From "Love Is Awake"

"It can be seen here that awakened love is not necessarily even about liking something; it is about honoring its right to exist and express itself as it chooses.

Awakened love is about giving complete unconditional allowance. You personally may choose not to do something. But when you do not honor the rights of others to do it you step on your own right to exercise your will freely, and that is to say you limit your being."

Accept Your Heart's Desire

2011-03-02T21:25:00.001-08:00

Story Waters
from The Messiah Seed

"Realize that this archetypical energy, of wanting what you do not have, is the manifestation of your belief in lack. Put energy into it and the Universe will always validate that energy, showing you that love and joy are everywhere except where you stand. Allow your Self to want. Allow your Self to want more. Do this from a feeling of joy for what you want and not from a point of disrespecting or diminishing what you have. With the power of your feeling of joy you will manifest your heart’s desire. Realize that you can accept what you have with your heart and still want more; but do this from living in the acceptance of your Self as you are, and not from the want for what is yet to come. Love your now."

The Quantum Conundrum

2011-02-27T19:28:00.000-08:00

by Richard Bartlett - The Physics of Miracles

"The less you do, the more you have.

[...]

There are literally billions of complex interactions that are constantly taking place within a human body. It is an absurdity to suppose that we could, exclusively through our conscious thought or intent, really do anything to influence this ultimate masterpiece of creative engineering.

[...]

We are the Door to the divine, not the Doer.

[...]

The less you do,

the more access you have

to the All."

Living by your Heart

2011-02-25T22:14:00.000-08:00

Story Waters
From "You Are God. Get Over It!"

"When you feel your heart leading you to move in a particular direction you are feeling your Godself. As you come to allow yourself to live by this feeling of inner guidance your growing trust in it will make it ever clearer. The more you come to live by your heart the easier it becomes. You are birthing the realization of your unity with your Godself. Living by your heart will take you through your unfolding in the most joyful of ways. Coming to live by this feeling is the realization of joy.

To follow your heart is to love yourself."

On Your Own Path

2011-01-14T18:27:00.000-08:00

"That which you are seeking is also seeking you."

Persistence

2011-01-14T18:16:00.000-08:00

"Successful people fail their way to the top."

A Success Seminar Speaker
(Sorry, I don't know who...)

True Power

2011-01-08T11:04:00.000-08:00

From Abraham - Esther & Jerry Hicks

"Most people rarely align with their true power because it seems illogical to them that there is power in relaxation, in letting go, or in love or joy or bliss. Most people do not understand that their true power lies in releasing resistance—which is the only obstacle to their true power.

The true path to the abundance and financial freedom that you seek is not a journey of action but instead an emotional journey. Your true power comes from the leverage of your alignment, not from your action. And while it is certain that there will be plenty of action involved, it will be good-feeling action that is inspired from your place of alignment from inside your Vortex."

Getting into the Vortex Meditation User Guide

Lost?

2010-12-10T12:54:00.001-08:00

"You can only be lost if you are trying to get somewhere."

Ram Tzu

What you seek...

2010-12-01T21:54:00.000-08:00

"Your own success can only be realized
when you are inside your Vortex.

You cannot "criticize yourself" to success.

You cannot "condemn yourself" to Well-Being."

The Vortex by Esther & Jerry Hicks

Following Our Dreams...

2010-09-28T08:07:00.000-07:00

"People are afraid to appear selfish and follow their dreams even though those dreams, if they are true dreams, will be of far greater service to the planet than anything else they do."

Gene Keys - Unlocking the Higher Purpose Hidden in Your DNA
Richard Rudd

The Voice of Knowledge

2010-06-27T18:35:00.000-07:00

By Don Miguel Ruiz
"The Voice of Knowledge"

"The mind is fertile ground for concepts, ideas, and opinions. If someone tells us a lie and we believe it, that lie takes root in our mind and can grow big and strong, like a tree. One little lie can be very contagious, spreading its seeds from person to person when we share it with others."

Going with the Flow Even When...

2010-06-24T18:23:00.000-07:00

By Story Waters

"Whenever your day becomes overwhelming or events feel like they are going wrong, stop and feel your center, feel yourself to be the calm eye of the storm. Take the time to consciously connect with your spirit, for within that experience is the remembrance of the feeling of trust for the flow of your life that exists beneath any surface drama; though it may not look like it in terms of surface events, know with all your being that this flow is carrying you to exactly where you want to be."

For more see:
http://www.evolvingtruth.com/333/

True Freedom

2010-06-14T08:32:00.000-07:00

From "The Voice of Knowledge"
By Don Miguel Ruiz

"You will know that

you are free

when

you no longer have to be you."

I am enough

2010-06-11T20:58:00.000-07:00

By Story Waters

"I am ready to let go of the chase, of the escape, and simply be myself. I am enough. What I am is enough. There is no failure. There is no lack. There is nothing going wrong. I release all expectations that I put upon myself, either directly or through the world. I am worthy. I am sovereign. I am enough. I am more than enough. I am excited to be what I already am. I am amazing. This is amazing. This life is amazing. I am ready to experience it through the knowing that I am enough.

Say it, and feel it, carry it with you and be it:"

Let 'em be free...

2010-06-11T13:39:00.000-07:00

“Do not ask the person who helped you

define what you want

to become what you want

so you can have what you want.”

Abraham - Esther Hicks

Happiness

2010-05-25T15:25:00.000-07:00

How about:

- Having something to do that we love doing
- Someone we love to do it with
- And something to look forward to.

:-)

Joy

2010-05-24T20:46:00.001-07:00

"You cannot struggle to Joy.

Struggle

and

Joy

are not

on the same channel."

Abraham - Esther Hicks

Is the Message Clear Yet?

2010-05-21T15:08:00.000-07:00

"All effort is ignorance."

Francis Lucille

No Gain in Pain

2010-05-19T20:05:00.000-07:00

Since we were born, we've all heard and been conditioned to believe: "No pain, no gain!"

In this short video, and throughout their teachings, Abraham - Esther Hicks explain that this belief does not have to be true for anyone who understands that everything is vibration and that the Law of Attraction which rules our entire universe works as follow:

"The essence of that which is like unto itself is drawn"

Hence, they tell us: "there is no gain in pain."
To follow the Path of Least Resistance - as the Tao also teaches us - is to align with the Path of Allowing, is to go "downstream." It is effortless, and it is where all that we want is to be found.

And what a relief that is!
:-)

Here is the short video:
http://www.lawofattractioninteraction.com/NoGainInPain.php

Movement & The Law of Attraction

2010-05-15T12:24:00.000-07:00

Do you know the old saying:

"What is for you will not pass by you."

It also the message of the rune "Movement":

"What is yours will come to you."

"The starting point is the self. Its essence is water.

Only clarity, willingness to change, is effective now.

A correct relationship to yourself is primary,

for from it flow all possible relationships

with

others and with the Divine."

"As I cultivate my own nature,
all else follows."

Ralph H. Blum - The Book of Runes

And it is also the essence of Abraham - Esther Hicks's message who speak about the inevitability of The Law of Attraction in our universe. Their message is very helpful to understand HOW one may start developing "a correct relationship to oneself." I so appreciate their gift to the world: Their words are light, fun, funny, very simple and positively empowering!

See:
http://www.lawofattractioninteraction.com/LawofAttractio

Inferiority is a Lie

2010-05-09T19:38:00.000-07:00

"She had understood that no human being who has walked this planet was or is different from the others. Few people were capable of saying out loud that the great Teachers from the past had the same qualities and the same defects as all men, and that this in no way diminished their ability to search for God. Judging oneself to be inferior to other people was one of the worst acts of pride he knew, because it was the most destructive way of being different."

"Brida" by Paulo Coelho

Others' Truth

2010-05-08T09:52:00.000-07:00

"We want to remind you that the only reason anything has manifested into a physical, tangible, definable truth is because someone has given enough attention to it to make that so. But just because someone else has managed to create their truth, it does not mean that it has any relationship to you or to what you will create."

"Ask and it is Given - Learning to Manifest Your Desires"
Abraham - Ester & Jerry Hicks

Let The Moment Decide

2010-04-29T16:47:00.000-07:00

From Osho

"Let your gestures be alive, spontaneous. Let your own awareness decide your lifestyle, life pattern. Don't allow anybody else to decide it. That is a sin, to allow anybody else to decide it.

Why is it a sin? -- because you will never be in it. It will remain superficial, it will be hypocrisy. Don't ask anybody how to pray. Let the moment decide, let the moment be decisive, and the truth of the moment should be your prayer. And once you allow the truth of the moment to possess you, you will start growing and you will know tremendous beauties of prayer. You have entered on the path."

Love Profusion

2010-04-29T10:01:00.000-07:00

This is a feel good song, I love it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMzSQnbBWPI&feature=related

Abraham and Madonna's Love Profusion

Waiting

2010-04-27T11:58:00.000-07:00

"What advantage could there possibly be in making decisions when you are not certain? What advantage could there be in basing your decision on anything other than having clarity? It doesn't make sense to be impulsive just because it is so habitual for the majority of the population to do that. After all, the thing that is driving this impulsive decision-making is the terror of uncertainty. Do you really want that to be the basis of your decisions and actions? Of course not!

Waiting is truly a spiritual practice because so often the reason you are not waiting is that if you did wait, you would have to face some pretty uncomfortable feelings that would come up during the waiting. Some of us are addicted to our impulsivity even though it perpetually causes us suffering."

"Pure Awareness: 5 Simple Techniques for Experiencing Your Essential Nature"
by Tom Stone

Our Symbolic Life

2010-04-26T13:05:00.000-07:00

"We experience greater awareness through encounters with that which we are not."

"Living Your Unlived Life - Coping with Unrealized Dreams and Fulfilling Your Purpose in the Second Half of Life"
By Robert A. Johnson & Jerry M. Ruhl

Questioning...

2010-04-25T19:38:00.000-07:00

"One who goes into questions strays off into the jungle of philosophy. Let questions come and go. Look at the crowd of questions like you look at people moving on the street -- nothing to give, nothing to take -- with detachment, standing far away...

The more distance there is between you and your questions, the better. Because it is in this gap the answer will arise."

From Osho

This is something I really need to learn and that comes at the perfect time for me today.
:-)

The Joy of Being Alone

2010-04-18T10:20:00.000-07:00

From Osho

"The joy of love is possible only if you have known the joy of being alone, because only then do you have something to share. Otherwise, two beggars meeting each other, clinging to each other, cannot be blissful. They will create misery for each other because each will be hoping, and hoping in vain, that "The other is going to fulfill me." The other is hoping the same. They cannot fulfill each other. They are both blind; they cannot help each other.

That's what happens: you are lonely, the other is lonely -- now you meet. First the honeymoon: that ecstasy that you have met the other, now you will not be lonely anymore. But within three days, or if you are intelligent enough, then within three hours... it depends on how intelligent you are. If you are stupid, then it will take a longer time because one does not learn; otherwise the intelligent person can immediately see after three minutes: "What are we trying to do? It is not going to happen. The other is as lonely as I am. Now we will be living together -- two lonelinesses together. Two wounds together cannot help each other to be healed."

We are part of each other -- no man is an island. We belong to an invisible but infinite continent. Boundless is our existence. But those experiences happen only to people who are self-actualizing, who are in such tremendous love with themselves that they can close their eyes and be alone and be utterly blissful. That's what meditation is all about. "

Osho
Transformation Tarot
http://www.osho.com/Main.cfm?Area=Magazine&Sub1Menu=Tarot&Sub2Menu=OshoZenTarot&Language=English

Observation Changes the Outcome

2010-04-17T09:36:00.000-07:00

From Leela Swann-Herbert
Human Design

"Once we learn to see our conditioning, it can no longer run the life. That which we can name loses its power over us. Observation changes the outcome of the experiment. If we want to experience something different in our lives, we don’t have to do a thing. Change is not about doing something different, it is about Seeing, and then change happens on its own, in its unique way, different than we could have ever imagined.

When we allow the form [the body] to live the life according to its uniqueness, it has a natural strategy for moving through life, and its own GPS system for making absolutely accurate decisions regarding its direction and course of life. Life will bring experiences, and the form will recognize which experiences are correct for its unique path in life, its unique contribution to the totality. The passenger consciousness was invited into this vehicle, it is this unique series of experiences that this consciousness has chosen, the gift of observing this life. We are here to observe this life, from the inside out, including the mind’s patterns.

When we observe our mind and its old conditioned patterns, they begin to change. We don’t have to DO anything about them, except SEE them, to experience them in an active state of awareness. And then change happens on its own, breathing in and breathing out, letting thoughts arise and fall, enjoying the moment, and letting it go. Observation changes the outcome of the experiment. This is the radical approach to self-discovery. We are here to learn to not just wait, but learn to Wait and to See."

http://www.jovianarchive.com/Pages/ChroniclesAuthor.aspx?id=2&n=Leela_Swann_Herbert

From "Loving What Is"

2010-04-15T11:06:00.000-07:00

Byron Katie:
How do you react when you think the thought: "I want them to accept my way," and they don't?

Justin:
It's painful.

Katie:
Yes. Lonely?

Justin:
Oh, yeah.

Katie:
Can you see a reason to drop this theory that anyone in this world needs to accept you at any time?

The Role of our Unconscious

2010-04-11T11:51:00.000-07:00

From "Inner Work" by Robert Johnson:

"The purpose of learning to work with the unconscious is not just to resolve our conflicts or deal with our neuroses. We find there a deep source of renewal, growth, strength, and wisdom. We connect with the source of our evolving character; we cooperate with the process whereby we bring the total self together; we learn to tap that rich lode of energy and intelligence that waits within."

Whose Business Is This?

2010-03-29T10:40:00.000-07:00

"Loving What Is" by Byron Katie

   "I can find 3 kinds of business in the universe: mine, yours, and God's. (For me, God means "reality". Reality is God because it rules. Anything that's out of my control, your control, and everyone else's control - I call that God's business.)

   Much of our stress comes from living out of our own business. When I think, "You need to get a job, I want you to be happy, you should be on time, you need to take better care of yourself," I am in your business. When I am worried about earthquakes, floods, war, or when I will die, I am in God's business. If I am mentally in your business or in God's business, the effect is separation. I noticed this early in 1986. When I mentally went into my mother's business, for example, with a thought like "My mother should understand me," I immediately experienced a feeling of loneliness. And I realized that every time in my life that I had felt hurt or lonely, I had been in someone else's business.
[...]

   To think that I know what's best for anyone else is to be out of my business. Even in the name of love, it is pure arrogance, and the result is tension, anxiety and fear. Do you know what's right for me? That is my only business. Let me work with that before I try to solve your problems for you.

   If you understand the 3 kinds of business enough to stay in your own business, it could free your life in a way that you can't even imagine. The next time you are feeling stress or discomfort, ask yourself whose business you're in mentally, and you may burst out laughing! That question can bring you back to yourself. And you may come to see that you've never really been present, that you've been mentally living in other people's business all your life.

   And if you practice it for a while, you may come to see that you don't have any business either and that your life runs perfectly well on its own."

Byron Katie
"Loving What Is"
http://www.thework.com/thework.asp

"Projection: A Cause for Confusion"

2010-03-27T10:33:00.000-07:00

"Projection is the error of attaching an aspect of your inner life onto someone or something on the outside. This way, you do not have to take responsibility for it. In projecting a disowned part of yourself, you endow other people and things with the power to make you blissful or miserable. Then you turn around and praise or blame the person or situation, while all the while you are reacting to an unconscious, inner part of yourself."

Robert Johnson & Jerry Ruhl
"Contentment - A Way to True Happiness"

I have been working on this for what seems like an eternity. And it has been! lol! I don't think it ever ends... :-)

Our True Nature

2010-03-14T13:29:00.000-07:00

"To realize your true nature,
you must wait for

the right moment and the right conditions.

When the time comes,
you are awakened as if from a dream.

You understand that what you have found is your own

and doesn't come from anywhere outside."

Buddhist Sutra

New Look at Serving & Following

2010-03-01T11:15:00.000-08:00

"The awareness that

the best road is

not necessarily

the most interesting."

Gate 17 - Line 3
Rave I'Ching - Ra Uhu Ru

-----------

"Following can mean joining another on the path toward yourself. Loved ones and friends can be disturbed by what they perceive as a preoccupation with something they don't understand. They can become angry or fearful at what seems to them to be your withdrawal from the "ways things used to be." They will probably be points at which your principles and the choices you make will be challenged, but standing your ground will bring benefits far beyond any apparent losses you might face as a consequence."

17 Following - Line 3
The Toa Oracle (Inspired by the I'Ching)
By Ma Deva Padma

What is Love?

2010-02-19T16:48:00.000-08:00

...

A haiku wanna be

An inside joke

A heart beating fast

A pink elephant

waiting

for a train

to arrive

...

"The Story of My Life"

2010-02-14T14:26:00.000-08:00

The Story of My Life by Ghazal 1419

i was ready to tell
the story of my life
but the ripple of tears and the
agony of my heart wouldn’t let
me

i began to stutter
saying a word here and there
and all along i felt
as tender as a crystal
ready to be shattered

in this stormy sea
we call life
all the big ships
come apart
board by board

how can i survive
riding a lonely
little boat
with no oars
and no arms

my boat did finally break
by the waves
and i broke free
as i tied myself
to a single board

though the panic is gone
i am now offended
why should i be so helpless
rising with one wave
and falling with the next

i don’t know
if i am
nonexistence
while i exist
but i know for sure
when i am
i am not
but
when i am not
then i am

now how can i be
a skeptic
about the
resurrection and
coming to life again

since in this world
i have many times
like my own imagination
died and
been born again

that is why
after a long agonizing life
as a hunter
i finally let go and got
hunted down and became free

Ghazal 1419
Translated by
Nader Khalili

There's humor in this:

2010-02-14T09:20:00.000-08:00

"We either
make ourselves miserable

or we make ourselves happy.

The amount of work

is the same."

Carlos Castaneda

I just found this quote on this inspiring website:

www.freewillastrology.com

Change

2010-02-08T22:35:00.000-08:00

"It is because you want to change that you cannot change. The 43rd Shadow of Deafness is what prevents you from hearing this simplest of truths. In this sense, deafness is the inability to hear what is going on inside you."

43rd Gene Key
From Richard Rudd's book:
"Gene Keys - Unlocking the Higher Purpose Hidden in Your DNA"

Timelessness

2010-02-06T22:29:00.000-08:00

"The ironic thing about

patience,

though,

is that it takes

patience

to learn

patience!"

Richard Rudd - The Gene Keys

"Existence knows where you live"

2010-01-26T13:10:00.000-08:00

Does it?
At times, it sure does not feel like it!
lol!
Perhaps I need to tattoo it on the back of my hand so I remember not to lose faith in the challenging times when nothing seems to be happening...

"There is no way to push the river,

equally you cannot hasten the harvest.

Be mindful that patience

is essential

for the recognition of your own process,

which, in its season,

leads to the Harvest of the Self."

The Book of Runes by Ralph H. Blum

Life is an experiment

2010-01-24T18:51:00.001-08:00

Isn't it?

Trial and error.
Discovery...
Always something new to try, to observe, to live.

Slowly, there comes the peace and awe of being the watcher...

Quantum Physics states that, in any experiment, the observer is not neutral. S/he influences its outcome. It seems to be true for me, although I do not always fully grasp how it manifests in my life. I mean, I see it clearly at times, but I also often "miss" it.

In this life-experiment, I am both the observer - of my own life, myself, and others - and I am also the observed. "Me living" is being observed by "me watching".
I am able to see this life of mine when I don't get too caught up and identified in the process of my experience with the thoughts, emotions, fears... that come up. And the judgment that things "should be different."

This experiment often leads to questions, but doesn't always lead to answers.
So sometimes, the whole thing blows up in my face...
And then I start again.
What others say may be interesting, informative, or even validating.
But in the end, I need to find out for myself.
Otherwise, why bother living my life?

I certainly don't want to live anybody else's life, no matter how appealing it may seem from the outside. I just want to be me. And I am pretty sure they don't want to be me and live my life either! lol! Yet so many of us still have this nasty habit of meddling with other people's lives... Well, at least I know I still do from time to time because "old habits die hard". And haven't we all been conditioned to try and fix - or supposedly help - others, even when we have not been asked?
Well, I don't know about you, but I know I am guilty. I even try to change and fix myself so much of the time!

Sometimes people tell me that I ask myself too many questions, or that I think too much. It may be true. But my mind can't stop thinking - can yours? It is a fact - perhaps until enlightenment graces us. But there is no comfort in waiting for something that may never happen. So, at times, it IS true: I think "too much."

And it is also their projection and their judgment: they "think" that they think too much, only they forget that when they say it to me. They feel uncomfortable when their mind asks too many questions that they cannot answer. It brings doubts and fears. Even panic at times.

But that's only because they/we think

that the mind has to have answers

in order for us

to live life and make decisions.

So the real question is: Does Life need our "thinking" to live?

This can't be true otherwise plants and animals couldn't exist. Planets and Galaxies would stop spinning, and all would die...

It's not thinking itself that's the "real problem". That's only a problem when we "think we need" to make decisions with the mind: but it's not such a good idea to make decisions with the mind. Because the mind can't make up its mind. The mind is quite fickle. It only takes observing it over time to notice.
:-0)

It is not that I am not open to what people tell me. I love hearing what people think and feel. It is enriching. But I have to be careful that it does not over ride my own inner-authority. In the end, other people's projections can be an enlightening multifaceted gift when we start noticing a fuller spectrum of what is really going on. But when they tell me: "It's not helpful to think too much..." are they able to see there own fears and projections?

For me, Life is quite interesting to observe in all its facets: it is one of the faculties only we humans are endowed with on this planet. And we can find humor even in the most challenging situations we find ourselves in when we start seeing from a broader perspective. This does require a certain level of thinking.

Yes, the conclusions I draw from my on-going experiment are mostly subjective and often temporary. So what?
It doesn't make them untrue or the search unworthy. Science functions the exact same way. And can we determine if Science is always totally useful? Totally useless? Of course not...

Physics also teaches us that the referential from which we observe is important: in other words,

there is no such thing as absolute truth.

Only ours in the moment. Undeniable. But temporary.
What we call "truth" isn't true for everybody. But it can be true for a few others. Or many others. Or no other. So what?
Even if it's not true for anyone else, it does not mean that it is not "truth" either. Does it?

If my thruth is only true for me, should I not share it? Or will I be afraid to share it?
Why? Or why not?
This is a profound question actually...

For me, I see more and more that what I call Love, my Loving Others, my Loving Humanity - which in the end reflects the love I have for myself - starts with accepting the diversity of these truths: In other words, for me, it's the base of "Love thy neighbor" - but not so much "Love your neighbor as yourself", but rather "Love your neighbor as themselves". Love them "as they are" with their own truth.
But how can I ever do this if I cannot "Love Myself As I Am" with warts and all...?

Yes, and yet, it's easy to say, but that's not an easy feat!
lol!

But I see I can only start with trusting my own truth - and its temporary quality - then it will be easier to accept others'. TRUSTING my own TRUTH, in the moment, no matter what it looks like, and in spite of what anybody else thinks or does. For me, that is the key, and I am very happy with the help and support I am getting through Human Design: http://www.jovianarchive.com

What do you think?
What is true for you?

The Way You Got Here...

2010-01-22T21:31:00.001-08:00

Check this out:

http://www.jovianarchive.com/Pages/ChroniclesPost.aspx?id=57&n=D_Construct_The_Way_You_Got_Here_Spectacular_Ancestors

I do not know how long this link will stay 'alive'. Perhaps only until March 2010.

Time to let go of the past

2010-01-09T11:08:00.001-08:00

It was time for me to erase all my blog. And see what will come next, when the time is right.